The I don't want to Bug

Hello Ladies and Gents! Welcome to my life tutorial. Not really but as of late I've been plagued by the "I don't want to bug" Do any of you have the slightest idea as to what I am referring. I will begin by reminding you I am currently North visiting family. It has been more like an extended vacation, saying all that there has been things to do. Because in reality I'm not on vacation and I don't want to come off as a slob. I know a round of laughs is going off but I really actually do like to maintain some cleanliness even if you cannot see it. The I don't want to bug does not help in any form of this. Like most things it just starts out really small, "I don't want to pick that up". It doesn't matter if its trash, clothes, say what you will. I just don't want to, Then it proceeds to enter more, like I don't want to take a shower, I don't want to do the dishes, I don't want to clean my room etc. You get the gist. Well occasionally I can do that in my walk with God. I don't want to hear what your saying God. I don't want to read that, I don't want to sing that. If you haven't discovered this by now I'm rather stubborn. Daily I come to a point of brokenness. When really God just wants and desires these things from me to show me how loved I truly am. He loves me more than anyone on this earth ever could. Yet day in and day out we look for that satisfaction in the world. In our friends, spouses, children, siblings, parents. All these and more, Why? Instant gratification or in most cases, instant disappointment. So much relief for me comes from quieting my heart and opening God's love letters to me. I can always tell when the "I don't want to bug" has really hit. It comes out in my tone, I will become really short and not satisfied with everything going on. Craving more from everyone and everything and eating a ton of food and yet tasting nothing. Especially in this day and age it seems many are starving for the truth. I pray we never get overcome with the " I don't want to bug". Always be searching and craving all God has to feed you this day. Dive into and just eat it all up because it always satisfies. I don't want to look at all God's promises and just brush it off like "OH yea that's God." Day in and day out we should yearn for that new Christian heart. Amazed at God's goodness and grace and never become dissatisfied by His blessings.

"The people who walk in darkness will see a great light. For those who live in a land of deep darkness a light will shine. Isaiah 9:2"

"These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship is a farce, for they teach man-made ideas as commands from God.Matthew 15:8-9"

Don't be completely changed by this world. Push into Christ and what He holds for your life. Constantly learning, and finding out more and more. God Bless and many prayers. Don't let the "I don't want to bug", get you. S.