Passionate Patience

Beautiful isn't it? God's creation, we breath it in daily just like it's normal to have such beautiful surroundings. Like its the normal to wake up everyday, like its normal to have clean air. All these blessings we constantly take for granted. We feel entitled like all these things are rightfully ours. What a lie we live, what a gift to have all these things and overwhelming grace. It's abundant daily and we just brush it off like another day. You know when you are just anxiously awaiting something and it seems to never get here? I had a wonderful blessing last Friday. Absolutely wonderful, and instead of enjoying my blessing I just ended up complaining about all the things I didn't have. OUTRAGEOUS! How childish of me! How dare I right? Something you might not know about me but my close friends know is I'm brutally honest. I am always the kick in the pants you need. Basically quit complaining and put your dukes up kinda girl. I tell it like it is, and I am okay with that. If you aren't I am not the kinda friend you need. Let's be real, probably I am the friend you need, you're just really ready to hear it. So I'm in the middle of my pity party and my friends give me the ol' one two. Right in my face, why are you complaining speech. It felt like someone had soccer punched me, I physically felt like I needed to kneel over for a good hour. Then I took it in, That's the kind of friend I am so why wouldn't I be able to take what I deal out. Trust me I can take it, I just didn't want to. God is honest, just and true. He is always that reality check we need. You will be so humored like I was to read my scriptures for today. First we start in

James 5:7-8 "Dear Brothers and sisters, be patient as you wait for the Lord's return. Consider the farmers who patiently wait for the rains in the fall and in the spring. They eagerly look for the valuable harvest to ripen. You too must be patient. Take courage, for the coming of the Lord is near."

Yup, I read this and I was" WHAT? No Lord, Not patience, Seriously?" Then I got to read this:

So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold- though your faith is far more precious then mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world. You love him even though you have never seen him. Though you do not see him now, you trust him; and you rejoice with a glorious inexpressible joy. The reward for trusting Him will be the salvation of your souls. 1 Peter 1:6-9

I have been away from home for a long time. I have been able to watch it go from winter to spring and what a beautiful experience it has been. I forgot how beautiful it is here and I am so honored I had the opportunity to come. As my time here comes to a close I am encouraged, in all God keeps doing in my walk. Even when I happen to be rather stubborn and need lots of one on one time. Prayers for you as you thrive for Christ. There is a light at the end of this tunnel for you!
S.

Fixing my eyes

Hello readers. I'm gonna start playing songs my dad doesn't know, He seems to think I wanted my own private concert of his melodious vocals. I'm back again blogging, letting it all out into my laptop. My hairs messy, I smell faintly of throw up, and I'm sure I've spilled several things all over me. A hot mess would be a mild exaggeration, I don't really care though. None of you can smell me, well maybe Dad can but that's okay. To put it into his words he can "suck it up". Last night I took thing 1 & 2's car seats and detailed them. I was feeling slightly ahead of the game until thing 2 blew chunks all over hers today. It's in these times that I wanna fall to the ground and scream.. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME!Alas I Step back, breath in and continue on. I can't control these things, I just have to keep going. Being a child would be an easier response. Throwing a fit, crossing my arms and refusing to move. Maybe choose to pull a teenager. Act like I know everything then just sleep through it. If I chose either of these I wouldn't ever move forward.I wouldn't be able to put one foot in front of the other. I wouldn't be able to show thing 1 & thing 2 how to " just keep swimming"

How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog- it's here a little while, then its gone. James 4:14

I was reading in James today, and I was humbled. How many times have I skimmed this verse instead of taking it to heart. Truly, My life is like the morning fog, the other day the fog was so thick you couldn't see the lake. Someone could have moved the entire house and placed us in the desert we wouldn't have known because we were surrounded by the fog. Yet how many times do we do that, really put into practice what we read. I can't speak for you and yours, I can speak for me. I don't want to regret the way I'm living, when its too late. This song has been running through my head all day. So here are the lyrics. Blessings on your weekend friends. Don't be brought down by the trials of this world. This is my temporary home. Being with Jesus is all I look forward to. S.

Strangly Dim Francesca Batestelli I've had all these plans piled up sky high A thousand dreams on hold And I don't know why, I got a front row seat To the longest wait And I just can't see Past the things I pray Today But when I fix my eyes on all that You are Then every doubt I feel Deep in my heart Grows strangely dim All my worries fade And fall to the ground Cause when I seek Your face And don't look around Any place I'm in Grows strangely dim Sometimes where I stand On this narrow road Is in a raging storm Or a valley low But oh When I fix my eyes on all that You are Then every doubt I feel Deep in my heart Grows strangely dim All my worries fade And fall to the ground Cause when I seek Your face And don't look around Any place I'm in Grows strangely dim I don't know I don't know What tomorrow may hold But I know, but I know That You're holding it all So no matter what may come I'm gonna fix my eyes on all that You are 'Til every doubt I feel Deep in my heart Grows strangely dim Let all my worries fade And fall to the ground I'm gonna seek Your face And not look around Til place I'm in Grows strangely dim